Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Staying Positive

After my bad week, I regrouped and things have gotten better.  I'm staying positive and not beating myself up if I'm not perfect.  My journaling is still struggling though.  I have been writing down my food on paper at night, but don't ever get it plugged in on the computer.  I'm sure I'm not remembering everything too.  Why is it so hard to always keep up with the journaling?  I keep telling myself to plan the week, but I just don't ever get to that point.  My workouts continue to stay on track and be awesome, but that darn food gets me every time.  Right now, I'm okay with it because I've been focusing on staying positive.

On Sunday, my husband and I analyzed our monthly budget and this always leads to me getting super stressed, which leads me to crying.  I felt myself getting stressed, but did some deep breathing or took a break when needed.  Finally after a few hours, I went for my run.  It was the best run I've had yet, and I broke my 3 mile run time.  When I got home, no more stress and our night was awesome!  So, I'll take being more positive and feeling happy over agonizing over not journaling.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Roller Coaster

My last week and half has been a huge roller coaster.  Along with many others, my hormones have gotten the best of me.  My emotions have been all over the place.  I would go from being happy, to sad, to so mad at my husband, and then so mad at myself.  I was not putting myself first, like my goal had been this year, and therefore, fell of the wagon.  I didn't journal, which means I didn't even care enough about myself to care what I was eating.  I did make it to the gym, but still couldn't run because of the ice covered streets.  (My neighborhood doesn't believe in snow plows, so we still have ice...so annoying!)  I did yoga, which I love and don't ever want to miss.  I have even done extra yoga here at home.  I tried to meditate more, thinking that would help, but I just couldn't get into it.  So, now I'm trying to figure out how to get back into my nutrition and mental game.  I'm not worried about the fitness because I can't live without that!

I was encouraged by the post from Chris, which I just read, and I'm glad that how I'm feeling is common.  I'm now left trying to figure out if it was really the hormones making me feel the way I did or something more.  Only time will tell!